Perfume...

    We all know how effective scent is in triggering memories (and nightmares). I realized how appropriate these fragrances were for the relationships I was in...these were the perfumes they wore (I couldn't make this up)...

       Opium and cigarette smoke will always smell like true love to me.... and getting my naive, trusting heart hacky- sacked all over town...

     I could have used some to get through the breakup, hell not just the break up, most of the relationship... aah, young, first love.

 

    This was my first May/December, totally infatuated, love affair and my first "younger woman" (I was 29, she was 19). Soon found out that a 19 year old "woman" can be...

    Also my first experience with a half crazed, stalker, wait outside her house 'til 7:00 AM, try to run you off the road ex-boyfriend... after dating her I knew why.

   The only woman I ever lived with... (no wait I just remembered I lived with Opium for six months)... two and a half whole tears. (you wouldn't believe how many times I type tears instead of years and vice versa, must be some connection... or maybe the "T" is just really close to the "Y"). My heart was never there but I didn't know what else to do... out of guilt (mine) she moved in with me because I had smashed her car up (another blog) and my place way closer to her work than where she was living... good idea, one of many. Couldn't move forward and couldn't see any way out... became an...

   Ended with us breaking up but still living together... and I started dating Poison, another excellent idea... I'm unreal.